when walking
through a cemetery
with someone who is dying
our respective children
bundled in coats so puffy
they could drop to the ground
and bounce right back up
But you will fall soon
and never rise,
details of day and place
the only unknown
The children revel
in disheveling the snow
romping around tombs
pronouncing the names
calculating the dates
especially those
who departed young
What is there to say
when we know
you will be among them
I don’t even know
if you want a stone
or what words
would sum you up
you who are a teardrop
in the eye of God
no prayer to withhold you
from their open hand
you who are unknown
to almost the whole world
who will not be missed
except for a fierce little cluster
whose love will not save you
What is there to say
as I watch you in glances
trying to spy on your soul
The children find the graves
graced with weather-beaten treasure
beads and bottles
fake flowers and flags
maybe we too will lay
such gifts at your feet
until then I give you this
a dream of life
a silent collusion
nothing left to say
but to gather the children
and walk away
MORROW DOWDLE is a poet and psychiatric physician assistant working at a community health clinic in Hillsborough, NC.