
Grounded
EMILIJA SAGAITYTE
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Jabbing needles, timeless capsules
Toxic floods, airborne viruses
Medicines for keeping, illness drifting into space
Full command, a pilot flicks the controls and takes flight
Esteemed drop of the goggles, helmet buckled tight, a dizzying
Breathlessness
Earned in the climb from crowded grounds into peaceful
Empty skies relieved by a constant gush of oxygen fueling the woman as she glides
But now the buttons on the screen, too far above her head to press and
The smudge-filled sky glimpsed only through the window by her bed and
She cannot yank out the tube, oxygen surging on every minute
A hum that can only carry her up into dreams as she pretends to rest and
She does not recognize these lungs—debilitating restraint on her chest
Remembers the gold ring on her finger—on, and away it welcomingly took her breath
Malfunctioning organs, slowly mushrooming masses
Her roommate’s a sleeping soldier who still wakes up every night
Their grandkids know the tales of triumph he now tells himself like lullabies
Whispers of danger like invisible shields, he would pluck his friends from fire,
Has seen lightening that splits lands in two, wished to sew them back together
In the dustiest dusks, a roadmap, and in nights of frozen stars, a lighter
But now mumblings say his reflexes are too brisk, his legs too weak
There’s a stab into his spine like a bullet, or a leech
Lightening pangs strike down his leg in an internal storm, never ceasing
Defending his homeland, the threat taking the nerves in his feet
Looks at the ring by his bed, once a strength to stand only on one knee
Stealthy annihilation, his enemy now invisible
Hearing mumblings by the door—that 6 a.m. dirigible
“‘Til death do us part,” she says
“Observe, they’re indivisible”
EMILIJA SAGAITYTE is a medical student at The Warren Alpert Medical School.